struggles

so we have this goal of eventually starting something… whatever that may be. and that’s super exciting to me. but it also causes a certain struggle for me. i have this grandiose picture of doing something worthwhile… something we were created to do and that we’ve spent years developing and putting into place. i want to spend my time efficiently in preparation… developing into a leader in many different capacities.

but sometimes with that comes a fear that i’m not doing a very good job of living in the moment… being here, right now. being a Christ follower, with a role in this phase of my life, and what that means to the people and environment around me. i only have so much energy to exert…. how do we balance a) putting so much energy into looking forward with b) focusing on just ‘being’?

side note: just watched the “everything is spiritual” presentation by rob bell… more on that later.